Proverbs 3:5

Proverbs 3:5:
5Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.

That verse is so much easier to say than do. We humans want to know and understand everything. We want to know "Why?"... we want to know "When?", "How?"... and God just wants us to rely TOTALLY on Him to know everything and for us to simply Trust Him.

I'm going through a a dark valley in my life right now... have been for a few years now. Everytime I see the light at the end of the tunnel, ... it gets dark again. I know it's the devil trying to get me down, trying to keep me discouraged and keep me from trusting my loving Father, my Papa. The devil doesn't seem to understand that I will NOT leave my loving Father. I learned that lesson many years ago. I have strayed now and then in the past and those were the worst times in my life. I will not stray again. So, dispite the unpleasantness of my current life conditions... I WILL Trust in my Father, my Papa who knows and loves me better than anyone what is best for me and know that He has a great plan for my life... I just have to trust in Him with ALL my heart! And NOT worry about all the unknowns... He has them all taken care of.

Honestly wish it were easier for my brain to not try to figure things out on its own. It's a control issue... wanting to know. But it's also a desire to be able to look ahead to the future and make plans and be excited. If you have no idea what your future holds and which direction you are going to go with your life and it's ALL totally up in the air... that is scary. It wouldn't be so scary for me if I didn't have children to raise and provide for. If it were just me, the unknown future would be a glorious adventure! I would be making all kinds of plans and moving out of state. But, maybe... just maybe, that's what God is trying to keep me from doing?... I don't know...