How come I'm here? I'm not supposed to be here... I'm supposed to be down the road at another customers...
I don't remember saying that... We really discussed this?...
When?....
I am now wondering just how much of the "small" stuff I have missed in my life the last twelve years. That's a scary thought to put your mind around. You don't ever want to go "there".... To think that you actually may have forgotten conversations you've had. Not just small ones, but important ones. Did you remember you grounded your child and why? Did you remember to open your mail? Do you even know where the mail is? Or is it still in the mailbox? No...
Can't concentrate?... Having a hard time focusing?... Did you forget what you were doing?... Did you forget what you're supposed to be doing?... Is stress making it harder?... Lack of sleep making you feel like you have mono?
Are you just mentally exhausted?...
"So much going on in your life... "You should cut yourself some slack... " After all, "you're doing a great job!". "I don't know HOW you do everything you do! I couldn't.". (words spoken to me by numerous people) You are a single mom of four kids... Also Working full-time outside the house. Add in taking care of your dad and his house, his shopping and bills. Then, he goes into the hospital and you go see him every night after working 10 hour days. It's no wonder you're forgetting things...
Or was it?....
It's true anyone doing all of the juggling I have done would have a challenging time of doing that schedule day in and day out for a couple years. It wasn't easy....
That was just a two year example.
God is my strength. He alone is my source of hope and faith.
Jesus loves me this I know... For the Bible tells me so. Remember that song?
It's not just a song I learned as a kid in Sunday school. I KNOW it in my heart and my head. I have stories to prove it. And now... I have another one...
God is my protector. He watches over me. He keeps me from harm. He keeps me safe from accidents when I didn't even know I needed protection.
My daily continual prayers (or rather conversations with my Father God) that I do everyday throughout the days.
I would usually mention protecting me and keep me safe to get home that night. Just words...? I drive a lot for my job...
God took those words, that prayer seriously even though He heard it everyday. That's because NO prayer no matter how small is too small for God. And when you think about it... That's not really a small prayer. That's huge with the up to 200 miles a day I could log.
God watched over me... He kept me safe... He got me home safe everyday.
My God has a plan for my life. This I know. I have faith and hope for my future even though right now, after my new diagnosis, I'm left confused and wondering... I know God has His hand on my life. He has a plan, He told me again. I will stand strong in my faith that " this too shall pass, or at least get under control with God on my side".
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