Saturday, February 20, 2010

Nothing is predestined

Nothing is predestined: The obstacles of your past can become the gateways that lead to new beginnings. Ralph Blum


Nothing is predestined... Only GOD knows the future... YOUR future... But, since God gives us Free Will to make our own choices in our lives...sometimes what He orginally had planned for our lives may not be the exact way he had planned  to go about getting us there, but God works miracles and can make even our worst mistakes in practicing our free will, into glory to Him. God can take our bad decisions, our sins and use them for good. God can put your life back into one piece and back on the track that He had for you when He created you in your mother's womb. God had a plan for your life before He created you. That plan doesn't change...

All you have to do is ask Him to... and believe... have faith that God is in control of your life and He will help show you the way to a life worth living in Him.

Nothing is too big for God to handle. NOTHING.

So, when you find yourself thinking that you've screwed up your life because you made a poor decision, don't worry about it... give it to God...He can fix it. God alone can make your life glorify Him. (just don't forget to thank Him :)



Everybody gets to practice Free Will.... everybody gets to live their lives how they want to live them... we are not God's puppets... He does not control us... To live your life for God is a choice that we make... God doesn't force us... He desires us... He created us to have a relationship with Him...by choice.

Sometimes other people's choice of practicing their Free will with their lives effects your life and what God had planned for your life... it happens... but God can and does still take those choices and make your life to glorify Him... no matter what that other person did to alter His original plans... God still has plans for your life and He will still use you no matter.

May you have faith today in knowing that there are no mistakes or bad choices of Free Will that can keep God from making your life worth living for Him.

God loves you...He wants to have a daily relationship with you...no matter what Free Will choices you make...

Just make sure you make the choice to have a relationship with God in your life. Make sure that the desire of your heart is to be like Jesus... you can't go wrong with that...

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

How do you live your life?....

So, I haven't been on here for awhile... I've had a birthday and a surgery since...

This birthday didn't 'effect' me as far as feeling like I'm getting older and any of that mind game drama. It was a day to celebrate that I had been born and that I am still alive! I'm blessed! Any day I wake up alive (which is everyday so far..ha ha ha:) I feel blessed. I was honestly blown away by how many birthday wishes I received on my facebook, emails and texts. I lost count after 150! That made me feel very special that that many people would take the time to wish me well. I feel blessed.

 Life is all a matter of perspective.

You can choose to tell yourself that you're getting old and your life is half over and look at the wrinkles starting to form or the grey hair that appeared over night... or you can choose to be thankful that you are alive to actually see those changes happening to your body. Because fact is, if you aren't getting older... you're already dead! I don't want to be 'already dead'.  I want to be alive to enjoy life and to see my children grow up and help them find their way in this life on earth. To help them set goals and dream of what their lives could become. I didn't have that. I didn't have someone to help me set goals and to dream of life. My life would have turned out entirely different had I had some direction given to me. Some encouragement would have been nice...

God wants to be that for us, but the truth is unless we allow Him... he gives us free will.

People only know what they are told. When we are born, we are a clean slate. We all start out the same. It's during our day to day lives that our brain retains information and we react to different experiences depending on our personalities and  become who we are. It's weird to me to think that there are millions of people in this world that have never been told about Jesus and His love for them in this world. That they are living their lives without any knowledge of Him whatsoever. That's hard to imagine. How can those people go through their daily lives of struggle and problems without knowing that their is a God that created them that loves them and cares about them? Sad to think...

It's one thing to be told about Jesus and Him dying for us and NOT believing. But it's entirely different to have never been given the chance to decide.

You don't know what you've been missing...because you were never told... lots of people living their lives not knowing... that's sad... but I find equally sad, is that so many people live their lives having been told, but live as if they haven't.  That's just as much of a horrible tragedy if not worse.

What do you do with the information you've been told in your life? Do you believe it without ever questioning it? Or do you disbelieve it without ever questioning it? Do you research to find the true answer? Or do you just ignore it and act as if you were never told? Do you live your life with any knowledge you've gained? Or do you just simply exist day to day waiting to die?  

How do you live your life?...

Have you ever thought about how you are living your life? Have you ever questioned what you're doing and why you are doing it? Have you ever questioned if you should be doing something different? Are you happy doing what you do? Are you happy living in the dark if you are? Or are you happy living in the light? Do you share your light with others? Or do you dare not for fear of what they might say?

How do you want to be remembered when you die? Have you thought about that? Have you thought about what you want to be remembered for? A legacy? Did you impact others with their lives? Did you make a positive change? 

Are you living the life that you were created to live? Sharing with others what you've learned to be true? Or even sharing with others your personal mistakes so as to spare them the pain of making those same mistakes? Because good can come from bad?

Just a few things to think about... how are you living your life?...

Sunday, February 7, 2010

YOU... are loveable. YOU... are beautiful.

Jonny Diaz explains it perfectly in his song 'More Beautiful You'. (lyrics below). Our society today brainwashes people from the youngest of age that in order for them to be beautiful, lovable and accepted they have to have a 'perfect' body. Perfect by society standards, which has become grossly unnatural. 


Society sets this 'perfect' model image up for both sexes, but  predominately for women. From the youngest of age little girls feel like in order to be loved and accepted they have to 'measure up' to the 'perfect' women in magazines, movies, television. I know... it effected me. I was a victim of that pressure to be 'perfect' and that I could never measure up to the 'standard'... never be loved... even the most beautiful women in the world, by society standards, fall prey to the pressure to be 'perfect' and surprisingly do NOT feel they can measure up! Supermodels in the magazines, actresses... ask them all and they will tell you they feel the pressure and don't feel that even they are 'good enough'. It's crazy. 


Problem is that society brainwashes boys and men as well thinking that the 'perfect' standard woman they created is also what they are men need to look for. It's a vicious cycle. Boys fall victim as well because they feel like they have to have big muscles and a six pack to rank. 

Jonny Diaz   'More Beautiful You'


Little girl fourteen flipping through a magazine
Says she wants to look that way
But her hair isn't straight, her body isn't fake
And she's always felt overweight

Well, little girl fourteen I wish that you could see
That beauty is within your heart
And you were made with such care, your skin, your body and your hair
Are perfect just the way they are

There could never be a more beautiful you
Don't buy the lies, disguises and hoops, they make you jump through
You were made to fill a purpose that only you could do
So there could never be a more beautiful you

Little girl twenty one the things that you've already done
Anything to get ahead
And you say you've got a man but He's got another plan
Only wants what you will do instead

Well, little girl twenty one you never thought that this would come
You starve yourself to play the part
But I can promise you there's a man whose love is true
And He'll treat you like the jewel you are

There could never be a more beautiful you
[ Jonny Diaz Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ]
Don't buy the lies, disguises and hoops, they make you jump through
You were made to fill a purpose that only you could do
So there could never be a more beautiful you, more beautiful you

So turn around you're not too far
To back away be who you are
To change your path go another way
It's not too late, you can be saved
If you feel depressed with past regrets
The shameful nights hope to forget
Can disappear, they can all be washed away

By the one who's strong, can right your wrongs
Can rid your fears dry, all your tears
And change the way you look at this big world
He will take your dark distorted view
And with His light, He will show you truth
And again you'll see through the eyes of a little girl

That there could never be a more beautiful you
Don't buy the lies, disguises and hoops, they make you jump through
You were made to fill a purpose that only you could do
So there could never be a more beautiful you
There could never be a more beautiful you



REALITY IS: 
God made YOU just the way He wanted you...perfect in His eyes! Whether you are a man that's going bald or already bald. Or your eyes are too close together, or too far apart, or you don't have the body type you wish you had... YOU are still lovable and beautiful! 


Took me years to be able to fully grasp this, what would seem to be a basic truth to being a child of God. And growing up a Christian and going to church...I never 'learned' that truth. Because despite God telling me I was lovable as His child... society had a megaphone in my ear daily telling me that I wasn't the 'perfect' model standard and therefore unlovable... 


I thank God I DID have the voice of my Father in my ear that kept me from being anorexic or bulimic as a teenager, but those days and that temptation was there... had my 'experience' with diet pills and not eating... scared me to death! Do NOT ever want to relive that or have anyone else have to live that. I'm sure my mother doesn't want to either. Four days of being out cold and not being able to feel my body when I did wake was so terrifying.... all because I wanted to be the 'perfect' standard...but I also wanted to have control of my life. Society doesn't take into account the pressures they put on people. Society doesn't care. 


YOU alone are worthy to be loved. You are beautiful just the way you are. Imperfect. Blue eyes, green eyes, brown eyes... it doesn't matter... you hair color doesn't matter. Your height or weight does NOT matter. YOU are STILL a child of God, your creator in heaven and He made you as a lovable person. 
It's what's in your HEART  that matters. What's on the inside... that's what counts. 


If you can relate to this and feel like you don't have the society 'perfect' body then I urge you to pray that God would reveal to you who you truly are in Him. That God would reveal to you that He made you perfect by His standards and those standards are the only ones that matter. God loves YOU for you alone. Perfect in your imperfectness... You are beautiful! You are a child of God. 










(diet pills story for those wondering) - I was working at Mc D's full time (yes. 40 hrs) and going to school. I was a junior in high school (16 yrs)... I didn't want to be at my house so I worked. In doing so many hours I used diet pills to keep me going (legal 'uppers') because they have caffeine in them... that along with the roughly 6-8 diet cokes I drank a day and not eating much. So, the stage was set. One night I was off work, I was hanging out with friends from McD's that were all older than I.  We had all gone to see a movie and I wasn't feeling 'right'. Light headed and in a daze. I didn't tell my friends. After the movie we went to the apartment and they wanted to play the game spoons. We played that if you lost the hand you had to do a slammer of rum and coke. (fill the shot glass with rum and then top off with cola then put your hand over the glass pick it up with the other hand and slam it down on the table hard to make the cola fiz and drink rapidly)  Anyway, I told my friends I wasn't feeling good and I wasn't going to play, but... I played... not feeling well, I lost... and had to do a slammer. I only did one slammer that night. After doing the slammer within minutes I was out cold. I woke to my friends panic over the top of me and the bright ceiling light and numb. I couldn't feel my body from my neck down. I couldn't move my arms. I could barely make a word. My friends picked me up and dragged me outside to have the freezing cold air jolt my body... didn't work.  I was aware of what was going on but paralyzed and unable to speak. trapped in my body, helpless as my friends tried to figure out what to do with me. 
They decided to take me to my older sister's house as they all knew her as she had once worked at that McD's. They wanted to take my car (a manual that no one knew how to drive). They all knew that my mother was not sane and that I would be in HUGE trouble at my house. They loaded me into my car and somehow figured out how to drive my manual transmission to my sister's house only a couple miles down the road. 
My sister seeing how out of it I was... did what she had to in order to cover herself... and called my parents... they came over (lived less than a mile from her) and the fireworks started. OMG! I was able to talk a little and feel a little at that point, but not good at all. My dad ended up carrying me to his truck and taking me home where I proceeded to sleep for four days straight.  I woke and felt like I had been hit by a mac truck. Freaky to wake up discover you've slept through four days of your life. 
My sister filled me in on everything that happened... I didn't remember anything at her house and only the strange sensations of my body were in my memory. Caffeine overdose... 
I stopped the Dexatrim diet pills after that... 

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

Do you pray?...everyday?...

Praying to God should be just like talking to a friend.
Praying doesn't have to be rigid and formal and reciting of verses from memory.
Praying should be sharing your heart with your heavenly Father, your Papa that loves you. Your creator that cares about what is going on in your life. God wants to you to share your heart with Him. He desires to have a daily relationship with you, sharing your life, good and bad. (not just bad...so many people only make time for God when their lives aren't going the way they want...that makes your Father sad).

“Prayer is not asking. It is a longing of the soul. It is daily admission of one's weakness. It is better in prayer to have a heart without words than words without a heart.”  Mahatma Gandhi

That is so true. You don't want to only pray, talk to God, always asking for things from Him. You need to have a grateful, thankful heart for everything that God is doing and has already done for you. I wake everyday thanking God for simply loving me in all my mistakes and sins. I go to sleep at night with those same sentiments. I pray, talk, to my Papa constantly throughout my days... I honestly can't imagine not.

God is the one person that you can always count on being there for you no matter how badly you screw up. The Bible says he will not leave you. If you ever have a time in life when you feel like God is not there...it's because you have turned your back on him.
“To be a Christian without prayer is no more possible than to be alive without breathing.”
Martin Luther King, Jr.


I can't imagine not praying throughout my day. Nor can I imagine (or want to) going through this world alone with no one to share it with that truly cares, not someone that says they care but truly they just have their own interests at heart. God's not like that. God truly wants you to be happy, He wants you to enjoy your life here on earth. When you pray to God and give Him all your problems... it is so freeing to not have to be concerned with them, to worry about what's going to happen, because you know that God is in control of your life and He will work everything out for the best. God knows the big picture... we only know the small portion that we can see from our view point today. When you put your trust in God with your life, your problems... you have a peace about your spirit that only He can provide. You have to pray in order to do all that.

"Courage is fear that has said its prayers.”  Dorothy Bernard
Amen! With God on your side, you should have all the courage in the world to go about your day and life! You can conquer anything that comes your way in life with God on your side!


Pray as though everything depended on God. Work as though everything depended on you.”Saint Augustine

Praying doesn't mean you can sit around and do nothing and expect things to get accomplished. You have to do your part. But praying before you act or react is always wise. Because you should always want to do what God would want you to do first and foremost.

I encourage you to start praying to God, your Papa that loves you dearly and made you who you are, daily, throughout the day...talk to Him like he's your best friend. Share all your thoughts, your hopes and dreams. Share your fears and concerns. And if you pray like that, and you don't feel a change in your life... email me... because I know that talking to your Father that loves you in Heaven and sharing your innermost thoughts daily, WILL have an impact on your life for the better!

May you feel the spirit of His presence as you go about your day, basking in the peace that only He can provide to your soul :)

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

Sin is sin is sin...



Divorce is NOT contagious! Although, if you've ever been divorced you may have felt like that is how most of your friends made you feel. Having been through a divorce (a time or two:(  I know that is how I felt. People treat you as if you getting divorced is going to effect their own marriages. It's really quite bizarre.

People don't mean to judge...it just happens...I think because they don't know what to say...  people that you used to considered 'good friends' suddenly are too busy to talk and stop taking your phone calls once they hear of the divorce. Christian and non-Christian friends alike...though I always expected more from the Christian friends; I guess that whole "Treat others how you want to be treated" rule made me think that... or the 'judge not lest you be judged'. Those seem to get thrown out the window with the word D.I.V.O.R.C.E....

I guess maybe there is some list somewhere of sins that are 'acceptable' and sins that are 'not'. I'm not privy to this list of sins, but I can imagine what sins would be in what column. I would assume that murder would be in the 'not' column. As well as stealing and coveting thy neighbors wife and being envious may be in the 'acceptable' column along with not reading your Bible daily or attending church every Sunday... your friends would cut you some slack on 'those' sins...

My point is that our God IS a loving God, a forgiving God for ALL that sin; which includes EVERYONE. Sin is sin. No matter how us humans choose to define or catagorize sin... it's all the same to God. And when we give it to Him and repent... He forgives... everyone that asks for no matter what sin we commit.

So, being proud and acting better than others... is a sin... being judgemental towards others... is a sin...
being unforgiving to those that have sinned against you...is a sin... Sin is sin... it ALL needs to be forgiven. No body is better than another.

People that are going through a divorce are already going through a hard time in their lives. If you've never been through one and it's hard for you to understand. Then count yourself lucky. I think that some people just don't know what to say. It's like when someone dies... or is diagnosed with a disease; any of those times that people just simply don't know what to say and instead of expressing that to their friend they make the mistake of saying nothing at all; of avoiding that person because the situation makes them uncomfortable. But what's happening with their friend is that they are hurting and feeling lonely and needing a friend and their friends have left them in their time of need.... that makes me sad...  sad for those people that are hurting...

Step outside your comfort zone with your friends and acquaintences and if you find that they are going through a divorce, or have been diagnosed with a disease, or lost someone close to them... even if you don't know what exactly to say and even if you don't agree with divorce... say something to let them know that you are still their friend and are there for them if they need an ear that you are there for them no matter...because you are choosing to be like Jesus and love others with grace and compassion.

If you are going through a divorce or have recently and are hurting... please email me so that I can pray for you. Divorce, no matter how much it may be needed, still hurts... you need to know that you are not alone and that people do care and that you are still a child of God that loves you deeply... no matter your sin.