Can't Take Away

All around
All of us
Fear has come
and so we must Ask ourselves
In who we trust
What we have here
Is not enough
So let it ring
In freedom sing
You can take away Everything that I've been holding
You can take away the sun
You can take away the very air that I've been breathing
But you can't take away my God
Oh, my God, my God
Waves will come
And winds will blow
But it's not here
I've found my hope
My beating heart
My very soul
Is held by one who won't let go
And so I'll cling
To You my King
You can take away
Everything that I've been holding
You can take away the sun
You can take away the very air that I've been breathing
But you can't take away my God
Oh, my God, my God
A hope that can't be lost
A love that can't be bought
You can't take away my God
Nothing high or low
Nothing you can control
You can't take away my God
You can take away Everything that I've been holding
You can take away the Sun
You can take away the very air that I've been breathing
But you can't take away my God
No you can't
No you can't
Take away my God
No you can't
No you can't
No you can't
Take away my God, Oh My God, My God


Those are the lyrics to a song by Mikeschair "Can't Take Away"

September 27, 2008 my dad, Jack Ellis, passed away unexpectedly of a staph bacteria that crossed over to his blood stream making him septic... he died a week later after a good fight.

He had been in the hospital or a nursing home since February 29th, 2008... when I didn't give him the choice (he was a stubborn man and refused to go to the doctor) of going to the hospital because he couldn't walk across the floor. His spinal stenosis had progressed so far that he would fall. So, on March 7th he had back surgery to correct.... that was the beginning of him never walking again... never returning to his home again...

I lost my dad... we talked on the phone everyday and I saw him everyday... I went to the hospital or nursing home to visit him and check up on his care. We talked about anything and everything (except sex... lol:) I cherished the conversations. He was a funny man with his opinions. My last real conversation with him was the evening of September 18th. We talked about 45 minutes on the phone... I was exhausted and it was late and I hadn't made it up to see him that night, but told him I would be there early the next day to see him as I had the day off work... he ended up in the ER with dropping blood pressure and too out of it from that point on to really communicate.

The youngest of seven children... in a very dysfunctional family I had one brother, at the time, that was really talking to me (he no longer does) and was at my dad's bedside his last days with me.

During the year that I was so busy taking care of and visiting my Dad every night after working a nine/ten hour day and children and homework my relationship with my boyfriend was feeling the pressure... we broke up multiple times...

I've lost the bestfriend/boyfriend I cherished, l loved and adored... he was the love of my life! He was the love that love songs are written about, that novels are written and movies are made. That make believe I can't believe it's real kind of love.... never loved anybody as deeply before... We spoke everyday several times... we texted each other throughtout the days... we shared our lives, laughs and love...

Three years prior to this, I lost my nice house and financial security because I divorced my husband that didn't want to be with me. That same year, I lost both my dogs... one expectedly of a brain tumor and the other one seven months later of old age. It was a rough year...

I know loss...

BUT... during all these times of stress and loss... I still worship God. God still loves me. God has never left me. I will not lose God... because you can't take away my God. That song says it all about how I feel about my God and my relationship with him.

No matter what I lose in life, and I've lost a lot!... I will always have my God. My faith that He will never leave me is true. So, you can take away the air I breathe, but... you can't take away my God!